Friday, August 2, 2013

Twenty


Fourteen years ago, I stepped into my very first Kindergarten classroom.  I was 23 years old, terrified and thrilled.  I had definitely found my fire!  The parents of those children looked skeptically at me, wondering aloud how “that young girl” was going to take care of and teach their babies.  On the first day of school, and every year after that, I was always overwhelmed by the sheer number of children.  Once we settled into our routine, it was no big deal, but the first day of school is a different story!  There’s something that happens when your class enrollment reaches twenty. 
 
                          Twenty small children (or 22, 24, 26…) is A LOT!!! 

 
This year, the first day of school will be very different for me.  After fourteen years of spending the first day of school with five and six year olds, I am beginning my internship as an Administrator at the high school level.  I am 37 years old, terrified and thrilled.  I am learning the customs, traditions, and language of a foreign country, one that has graciously accepted me as one of their own.  Again, I am looking for that spark that will send me along a blazing path.  On August 8, I expect to be overwhelmed once again by the sheer number of children…this time a school full of teenagers rather than a classroom of twenty or so little people. 

 
Still, I won’t be able to help but wonder what’s going on in Kindergarten.  That magical place.  The place where it all begins.  And, my prayers will be with Kindergarten teachers everywhere as they welcome “Twenty” to school for the very first time. 

 
Twenty by Emily Branch

20 is a lot...

20 parents to call
20 bus tags to make
20 names that are just that...names
20 mysteries to solve
20 sets of worried, protective, parental eyes to gaze into
20 steady gazes that say, "I've got this...Let me love him, let me help him grow..."

20 seeds to sow
20 malleable young minds, waiting and wondering
20 first hugs, some squeeze tight looking for acceptance, some timid, stiff, skeptical
20 tiny voices...."look at mine, teacher"
20 pairs of shoes to tie
20 first marks on their very first school paper...


20 dirty faces to count at the pumpkin patch...
20 times or more
20 into the wagon for the hayride
20 pumpkins to load into the truck

20 times to hear, “I notice something!”
20 first report cards
20 first loose teeth to pull…

20 cold, gray, rainy days stuck indoors

20 dedications to write inside the books given for Christmas
20 thank you cards to write for the precious mugs that say "Teacher"
20 jackets to zip up
20 runny noses
20 first times to truly read a word…

20 beautifully, breezy days playing outdoors

20 monkeys running wild through the zoo
20 pairs of shorts, now too small
20 noses buried in books
20 plaintive requests, "read some more"
20 writers...
20 readers...
20 thinkers......

20 yearbooks to sign
20 last report cards
20 favorite songs
20 tight, confident, familiar hugs
20 teary faces
20 goodbyes......
20 trembly voices, “I’ll miss you next year”
20 seeds sown.

20 is not very much.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Let's Set the World on Fire

Last night, I was completely blown away by the Petal High School Indoor Percussion Ensemble's Performance!  Trust me when I say that this is not something that you want to miss.  To the directors, crew, and musicians:  you truly "set the world on fire" with your send-off exhibition.  I have no doubt that you will "burn brighter than the sun" in Dayton, Ohio, this Friday.

Words cannot express how humbled I felt when Mr. Lymon shared that the words I wrote last Summer helped to inspire your show.  Surrounded by a few of my students, I watched you display your craft with so much energy, so much passion, so much FIRE, that goosebumps covered my skin, and my eyes filled with tears.  To imagine that I had any small part of the phenomenal art that you shared with the crowd is simply unfathomable.  

It's interesting to note that when I started this blog back during the summer, I was "on fire" for the new year to come. I had learned so many new things about teaching and learning, and I was literally burning with anticipation to begin teaching my new class.   My fire for teaching is like those blazing wildfires out West.  

              Unpredictable.  Unassailable.   Undaunted. 

I decided that starting a blog would be perfect for sharing all of the things that my students and I would be learning and experiencing everyday.  I envisioned myself blogging once or twice a week about our journey together, complete with photographs and student bloggers.  I built a fire beneath myself, and boy was it blazing!  

Well, let me tell you...left untended, a fire will sometimes burn out!  Somehow, in the midst of all the singing, talking, reading, laughing, painting, talking, writing, quarreling, dancing, talking, tree hugging, crying, counting, and - did I mention talking?- teaching, my blog was neglected.  Sure, I would think of it at midnight when I couldn't sleep, as if it were an ember waiting for me to come and stir the flame back to life.  But, there's just so much a girl can do in a day, so there it remained...buried...or so I thought.

Little did I know that this tiny spark had ignited a fire in Tony Lymon, drummer extraordinaire, and that like an Olympic torch bearer, he was passing the flame on to each of you, and that you would soon use it to literally Ignite the World.  (For those of you who don't know, the PHS Indoor Percussion Ensemble competes this Friday, April 19, in Dayton, Ohio, in the Scholastic Division of the WORLD Class Championships.  I learned last night that there are only twenty ensembles on the planet who qualify for this elite division, and, yes, PHS is home to one of these.)

What thrills me most about this story is that the words displayed on your screen last night:

One spark can change a room...
And, if a spark can change a room, it can change a city...
And, if a spark can change a city, it can change a state...
And, if a spark can change a state, it can change a nation...
And, if a spark can change a nation...
A SPARK CAN CHANGE THE WORLD!

...were justified.

You see, sometimes we start a fire with very well defined intentions.  We plot and plan tirelessly before ever daring to strike the very first match.   We collect the best fuel we can find, arrange and rearrange the components, and practice for every conceivable scenario.  We seek permission from the Fire Marshall again and again, afraid of taking a step in the wrong direction.  When we finally find the courage to light the flame, we tend that fire in every way possible.  We consult fire management experts and spend hours researching the best way to make our fire grow and fulfill whatever goal we have set for it.  We plan and plot tirelessly to ensure that the fire does exactly what the manuals say it should do. We talk ourselves out of taking too many risks with the fire in fear that we might burn down the whole house!  But, somehow, in all of this planning and plotting, our original passion can often be extinguished.  We find ourselves stomping out other fires that have ignited all around us while we were preoccupied, reducing "our fire" to a formula that we could manage comfortably.  We end up tired... burned out... We become fire fighters rather than flame igniters, focused on keeping the fire contained rather that letting it do what fires are meant to do.

To me, the best, the most beautiful, the most powerful fire is the one we don't even know we set.  The one that began with the tiny spark of a brilliant idea.  The one that rages out of control.  

        Unpredictable.  Unassailable.  Undaunted.

As I watched your show unfold last night, I was reminded yet again about how truly easy it is to make an impact.  One person literally can impact the world.  The catch is, more often than not, it's not usually in the way we planned.  And the bonus is, our impact often comes back to us on a much larger scale than we ever anticipated, just as that tiny spark did for me last night.

Jeremiah 20:9 says, "His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot."  On Friday, my Kindergarten class and I will be watching from Petal as you let go of the spark within.  Don't hold anything back!  Release the fire inside of you, and let it Ignite the World.  Please know that 24 bright and shining children will be cheering you on and singing:

Tonight......
We are young....
So let's set the world on fire...
We can burn brighter....
Than the sun!